I've always waited for sth to happen. Not just somebody to save me. Sth big should have happened. Well, nothing happened. Nothing ever happens. I should do sth. I don't feel like I have this power, to change, but uoy never know if you don't ever try.

21.04.2012

 Finally, I have time to wrap-up old things and start new ones.

19.04.2012

 I feel so relieved. People should quit sometimes, they really should do it.

17.04.2012

 Fear. I live with fear. Fear of losing someone, something. Fear of people getting upset or angry because of me. Fear of losing myself.

15.04.2012

 You're your own person. Establish your own rules. Don't live on other people's rules and opininons. Because they don't live with you.

15.04.2012

 It's better to talk to someone who understands you, and not to waste your time with people who don't. You cen spend hours and hours and end up with nothing. What can be more frustrating?

14.04.2012

I always worry about having shortcomings. People are superior than me because they are stronger than me. In some ways, at least. But I have other positive thins I have in my life. I can't use them. Actually I do, but not enough. People don't always get lucky in their lives, if they catch a chance, they should use it, to the end. I should do the same.

14.04.2012

I'm hurting myself. Both mentally and physically. I'm really hurtin myself. I can't stop it.

11.04.2012

Why can't I accept things the way they are? Why do I have to be such a drama queen? I don't wanna be like this. Why do I like to be sorry about myself so much?